i finally got to talk to my baby boy tonight!!! here is a bit of our lovely conversation!

linds: what were you writing
linds: i was waiting
linds: put it back
linds: you stink
cliff jobe: I have been trying to write this
cliff jobe: hang on
cliff jobe: im not done yet, but here
cliff jobe: linds, i want to spend all my time with you, i want to be able to lay down on our bed and watch a sad movie and be able to cry and hold you in my arms and be comforted by the fact that you will always be with me. I want to be able to hold your hand and walk down the street.
cliff jobe: I want to spend a day outside working in the yard, and come inside and see you smile at me, just thinking about it makes my heart melt
cliff jobe: I have trouble sometimes, i hear a song, or i think about you, and my chest gets tight, my breathing gets slow, and i feel like i might tear up because your not here with me
linds: i feel the same
cliff jobe: i have never felt anything like this linds, i have never felt this way for any of my family, just you
linds: i used to think i felt like this. several times, and i would get emotional, but there i was always holding something back, hangin on for dear life to something, there was no trust, it was all one sided, and i realize that more now than ever
linds: love can be returned and still be unrequited, because if you love someone and they dont love you as much it hurts almost worse than if they didnt love you at all
linds: i used to think it would change. but here, i had a friendship. i had trust, someone i relied on, and i loved you before i liked you. i loved you before i fell in love with you, and i didnt even know i was falling until i hit the ground
linds: people question us, and they always will. some girl in the tent i was talking to yesterday asked me how long we had been together and i lied to her. i feel like i have to make excuses to explain it, because they dont understand the level we see eachother on
linds: im done with that, and thats one reason i want to get married, i want everyone to know that this time its real, and its forever
linds: there is no need for anyone to question me, and there is no reason i should care, because i know whats there. i try not to be affected by peoples reactions and their opinions but its hard.
linds: there is only one that we have to please in this life time, and He, more than we know, knows what we feel
linds: and if we stay on the right track and stop being affected by location and opinion and whether this or that is going to happen, and just communicate with eachother and stop proof reading our thoughts, then we will be perfect
linds: its sucks being away, but we might spend two years apart, that as well as us dying one day, is inevitable, and it only makes it harder if we dont talk about it
linds: everyone is so afraid to talk about death. it happens to everyone and everything