tonight i accepted a compliment. a guy told me, and really not to hit on me cause he was too busy hitting on my roommate, that i should do stand up comedy. he was obviously very entertained by me all night. i felt special.
i dont know what to do about my roommate. she is trying ("trying") to get over this guy, and cannot just drop it. her famous line is im not going back to him. but we have all heard that before. its frustrating. she is............... ok im just getting frustrated.

on to better things. like how im absolutly in love and it is the most amazing feeling. i have found the love of my life and there is no turning back. none. he keeps making me happy just being himself. i love his family and him so much. we are going to change the world.

it kinda sucks because i say almost the same things every time i write because there is nothing new going on. i should probably be writing fiction because it would be a lot more interesting. but based on my dreams, i dont think i should be doing that either.

ok im out for the night. i might start posting dreams if i keep remembering them.

paperweight- schuyler fisk

Been up all night staring at you
wondering what's on your mind
i've been this way with so many before
but this feels like the first time
you want the sunrise to go back to bed
i want to make you laugh
mess up my bed with me
kick off the covers i'm waiting
every word you say i think
i should write down
don't want to forget come daylight
happy to lay here
just happy to lbe here
i'm happy to know you
play me a song
your newest one
please leave your taste on my tongue
paperweight on my back
cover me like a blanket
mess up my bed with me
kick off the covers i'm waiting
every word you say i think
i should write down
don't want to forget come daylight
and no need to worry
that's wastin time
and no need to wonder
what's been on my mind
it's you
it's you
it's you
every word you say i think
i should write down
don't want to forget come daylight
and i give up
i let you win
you win cause i'm not counting
you made it back
to sleep again
wonder what you're dreaming

On Memorial Day, May 28, 2007, we honored those who have made the ultimate sacrifice, and given their own lives for this country. We honor our friend, CPL Mokri, who was taken from us at the end of last year. As we go through our days out here one day at a time, we know how lucky we are to be able to look forward and continue on. These men and women who have lost their lives will never be forgotten.

together we can change the world-19May07

you don't have to try, even though i know you feel you need to.
you be you, i'll be me, and together we can change the world.
nothing should be forced, nothing should be hard.
compromise is one thing, changing is another.
i love you for who you are, not what i think you can do for me.
you be you, i'll be me, and together we can change the world.
the kid was right, being in love is total agony.
with every decision i make, every thought, every change in breath, i have you in mind.
you fill even the parts of my life that i haven't got to yet.
i find myself fretting about what i would ever have done if i never saw you through these eyes.
but i did. you saw me first. you showed me. you show me. i feel it.
now i can't get enough.
now tell me how i can make you feel like you make me feel.
i think that would make the circle more complete.
no holding back.
you be you and i'll be me. together we can change the world.
we have a long scary journey in front of us.
one that neither of us really know what is to come.
there is something, that we seem to be skipping over, almost like there is no fear.
maybe it is that easy.
together we can change the world.
right now is hard. there are so many different angles pulling us so tight.
whos to say it will or wont, as long as we stand strong.
i love you and you love me, together we can change the world.

come and tell me goodnight- 22May07

here i am again.
writing.
you should come over here and tell me goodnight.
what has gotten into me?
maybe its the extra time? or the rebellion of studies?
all i think about is you. i think about the future.
i think about our lives together.
you will have to watch me.
a woman who thinks too much can be a dangerous road.
then i will start getting ideas.
you need to come over here and tell me goodnight.
but right now, lets focus on right now.
lets show everyone else who we are, and whose team we are on.
i am alone right now.
you are probably working.
i dont want to interfere.
just wish you would come over here and tell me goodnight.
you seem to be concentrating on something else latly.
dont flood your brain to where there is no room for me.
my brain seems to change everything i do or say into something involving you.
i must stop thinking now.
so why dont you come on over and tell me goodnight?