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Never take it seriously! If you never take it seriously, you'll never get hurt. If you never get hurt, You'll always have fun. And if you ever get lonely, you can just go to the record store, and visit your friends.

-Penny Lane
Almost Famous

Without music, life would be a mistake!

"I'm not running. I'm not hiding. I'm not reaching. I'm just resting in the arms of the great wide open. Wanna pull my sould in. And I'm almost home!" -Mary Chapin Carpenter

i recieved a box from my best friend growing up and her mother. it was great. her mom said for me to be out here is shows a courageous character, and she isn't suprised because I was the one who always picked up the crickets and kissed them.

"Hey everyone, look what I've got, Christmas cookies!"
"Cookies.... YAYAYAYAY!"

"Who was that strannnngge bluuuuue creeeturee??"

and it sets in

after writing and posting everything i did yesterday, i felt so much better today. i didnt run last night, or read that much, or anything special, and i still felt better today. for some reason time was moving so slowly the past two days, but it is back to normal again.

i received a letter yesterday. well actually, i received a thumb drive, with a letter on it, addressed to Dallas. it was very sweet, and nearly made me cry. it was just from a friend, whom i have built a relationship with since i have been at speicher, and what he thought about me being here, what has gone on since i have been here, and that he hates to see me go. it was very rewarding.

talked to Dan today. he lost 3 friends yesterday. i hate to see him go through this alone. i just pray that he continues to seek God, and pray to Him for all of his needs.

my cousin is just like me, and it scares me to death because she is 15. so she still has the hard times ahead of her! grrr. why does life have to be so confusing. why does everyone have to hate everyone else.

oh i found a really cool non-profit organization at www.care.org

and more

Small change, small wonders- these are the currency of my endurence and untimately of my life.
- Barbara Kingsolver

If you prepare yourself at every point as well as you cae... you will be able to grasp oppurtunity for broader experience when it appears.
- Elenor Roosevelt

i know i keep posting

this is my 4th post in the last couple of minutes, but i want them to be seperate

today i was thinking. a good friend of mine was talking about going skiing. (you know going on a ski trip, like nearly half of the americans that can afford it do EVERY STINKIN YEAR) i was thinking about how vacations like that seem so insipid (my favorite word, if you don't know it, look it up) I mean, doesn't someone want to spend that crazy amount of money that they spend on something worthwhile. that won't last a couple of days and then just be pictures, a pulled hamstring, and a fight that gets bigger as you are leaving because you are, in fact, leaving. i want more than life that this. i want to go all over the world (and all over the US) and skiing is so wonderful, but it sounds so petty right now. blah.

i need prayers for guidence. sometimes i think i love to much. is that possible?

there are things that happen in my life that make me think im special. i get feelings about things that i know to be true, and then they do happen. i will bring subjects up when i walk into church, and the ministers will say, well umm, thats just what i was planning on talking about today. this can get to you. also, i will lay in bed and think to myself, someone is going to knock on the door, so i should just stay awake (not expecting anyone) and then 15 min later or so, knock knock. strange. a

nyway, i really want to help people. i want to love people. sometimes i think i get confused about my feelings of love and decide to let hate out, or just some form of whatever. i really needed to be around people full of love, and the soldiers here have trouble with that. the guys think you are hitting on them, and turn it another way, and the girls just push you away. there aren't many girls here i'm really close to anyway.

so i will now quit ranting, for the day, and continue on my work pattern of finding something to do for the next 3 hours!

much love ::muah::

Hope

The very least you can do in your life is figure out what you hope for. And the most you can do is live inside that hope. Not admire it from a distance, but live right in it, under its roof. What I want is so simple I almost can't say it. Elementary Kindness. Enough to eat, enought to go around. The possibility that kids might one day grow up to be neither the destroyers nor the destroyed. That's about it. Right now I'm living in that hope, running down its hallway, and touching the walls on both sides.

forgot..........

i would would would be putting pictures on here RIGHT NOW! but i forgot, i have to have a program called Hello! and i cannot download it on this computer cause it isn't mine! i forgot....

a couple of quotes, and daily whatevers...

First, I will start with the 5 second rule. For those of you that know it, it doesn't REALLY start until you start counting. Therefore, a twinkee, on the side of the road, is fair game!!
Hey look a twinkee..... one thousand one, one thousand two.......

SGT Henley walked into the office (sounds like the horse that walks into a bar) and I said to him "SGT, why is it everytime you are around, I smell alcohol??"
His quick response is "Maybe, it's because my presense is so intoxicating!"
Touche!

Yesterday Vantine said "Coffee really ticks me off, because it is just so freakin' hot!
haha. yes.

times

Times go by way too fast. I was just on the glorious MYSPACE looking at pictures of my cousins! I wish so badly that I was there with them.

Work is so boring today.

Yesterday we had a long conversation about men and women and relationships. (It was me and about 5 guys!) Well one of the guys said "Why do you think that men alwasy die before women? ::long dramatic pause:: Because WE WANT TO!" It was so funny!

There is quite a bit I want to write in here, and I make small notes on my notepads, but I always forget to bring them along. I also forgot my picture cd. I am still not sure if I am doing this for myself or what. No one is looking at it. At least right now. But it is just something to keep people updated.

Ok I promise the next post will be much more entertaining. *did i say that last time??*

much love

for my dad

ok. since this one is first, i would love to make it very very long. i did not, however, expect, or think about making a new one before i came over to use the computer, so i will have to return tomorrow, or at a later date.
everyone must understand that i am very limited to what i can write on here and when i can post because i am deployed, and a lot of our internet systems keep everyone out of blog sites.

thank you for bearing with me. im sure no one will ever know about this site until i tell them, because everyone has decided that blogs are not important unless they are on your myspace page. well myspace is also the new place for perverts to prowl.

i am mainly starting this for my daddy. i will try to put pictures on. it is going to be rocky for a bit, but at least there is somewhere. once i get back to my "home fob" i may have commercial internet in my living quarters, so that would be good because i could get on all the time.

i have so many new quotes to write because i have been choaking down books since i came out here!

love to all